This post was originally published at http://racersmommy.blogspot.com/2012/04/yuckmouth-mommy-to-i-wish-i-didnt-have.html and is reprinted here with permission from the author.
The YuckMouth Mommy to I Wish I Didn’t Have Aspergers
Recently another Bloggers blog was searched out and read by someone who used the Key Words “I wish I Didn’t Have Aspergers” you can read about it here. Today as the last day of Autism Awareness Month there is a group of bloggers doing a flash blog in support of this random searcher. Here is my response to that.
Dear I Wish I Didn’t Have Aspergers,
Recently you reached out to the interwebs, you were in search of something, while most of us don’t know if you ever found what you were looking for, this time when you search you will be met with warmth. I want you to know that its ok to be scared, its ok to be afraid of what you feel about yourself. I have three children with special needs, as their mother I love them unconditionally, with every fiber of my being I make it my duty for them to never feel pain or sorrow. But with the reality of life I know that at some point that’s not possible.
They will fly from my nest with unsteady wings and see the world for what it is. Sometimes it can be cruel, sometimes you will find the friendship and acceptance you need from it. I have made it my mission with my blog to make the world aware of what’s coming. Its my job to make everyone aware of my boys and my daughter. To have the world accept them of who they are and who they will struggle and strive to be.
When I look at Racer, my 6yr old with Autism, I see a uncertain future. Sometimes I’m scared of that future because of the present. There will be struggles, there will be tears but there will also be progress. Because for every one stranger that gives that dirty look there is going to be someone there who will extend that hand to help.
I hope that you reach out again, I hope that you sit in front of the computer again looking for answers, looking for support. This time you will find what you need, you will find that you are not alone. You will find that while we all struggle from time to time in this spectrum we call home that we also have created an outstanding support system. A support system for parents, grandparents, friends, family and our children and their siblings.
We might not have all the answers, but we have the words to ease the hurt. Please know that you are cared about by a community of women and men who want you to know that they care. Thinking about that makes me a little less nervous about my own special needs children. I hope it does for you too.
The YuckMouth Mommy