To “I wish I didn’t have Aspergers”.
I am autistic. I am one among many who has been called “retarded” too many times because I look very disabled. I am pretty sure some people still think of me as pitiful and unable to do anything.
I don’t know why you feel that having Aspergers is bad. Maybe you have been bullied, called “weird” or worse. Maybe you feel lonely. I can’t blame you for being upset. But you must hear this. You are not the problem. Aspergers is not the problem. Society’s attitude is the problem. Neurotypical’s attitude towards you is the problem. Acceptance is the solution.
I am not saying that everything will always be easy, but things can get better. There are a lot of us, all over the spectrum, who are very supportive of each other. We will accept and support you, if that is what you are hoping for.
Having Aspergers, or being autistic is not easy. Our brain works differently and we react in different ways. This is sometimes seen as “odd” or “weird”. But we, people on the spectrum, decided that even the “weird” is cool and ok, since it does not harm anyone.
If you are reading this, I hope you understand that we are prepared to accept and include you. Maybe you will find an answer to why you feel this way. We will respect you and maybe you will find good friends.
It worked for me. Despite all the name-calling, I am valued for who I am, even though my needs are still many. My friends are able to see my abilities too. I continue to try to prove myself worthy and my friends encourage me.
Having Aspergers does not mean being less, it means being different. And different is good, even though it isn’t always easy.